I have some amazing people in my life that do not realise how amazing they truly are. People i want to take hold of and never let go. Take care of feed and clothe and put a roof over there head and tell them that everything is okay and I will never leave them. They don't realise how big there hearts are and only see the horrible things that they have done. Every one makes mistakes though and these people care about others more then anyone i know have hearts as big as the ocean, Are smart, selfless, and genuinely amazing people. The people i turn to when my life is falling apart the people i spend hours with just sitting, talking, crying, hugging. The ones i can spend hours with not saying a word but knowing exactly what they are thinking. These are the people i live for. Without them i would be nothing and without naming names I want them to know I love you. You are amazing. I would not change One single thing about you. If I could hold onto you forever I would. I never want to lose you because you are the single most important thing in my life. I will always love you no matter how much you hate yourself. And as long as one person loves you your life is worth living. So please don't leave me here to fend for myself. Because I can't do it alone. I need you to hold my hand when i make bad decisions. I need you to hug me when I'm crying I need you to be there when we have nothing to do. To sit around and watch movies listen to music. Swim in our underwear. I need you to wash my hair when its dirty, and tell me everything in life is okay because we have each other and our friendship is stronger then the hurt any person puts on us.
I have some not so amazing people in my life as well but i still love them. I can't hate a person no matter how much they hurt me. Last night i was talking about no matter how much a person hurtes me i still love them. It was in the case of a certain boy that has hurt me alot of the last year and that i have told i hate. But I don't hate you, I still love you, I love you more then anyone else in my life. And no matter what i always will. They say first loves stay with you always and I can only hope so because you are a person i never want to forget. The days and nights spent with you lying n bed cuddling and kissing and talking about nothing are days that will stay with me forever. The little kisses that no one else ever saw. Sneaking around behind peoples backs to secretly hold hands. They are things I want to stay with me forever. Because they are the simpler times when you would look me in the eyes and I could see something in you no one else could. And you saw the me noone else has. The only person that really knows me doesn't want to know me. The only person i have ever said i love you to doesn't want to love me. It breaks my heart every day. But my heart is strong enough to still love you more then anything. I still see that something in you no one else does. I will have loved you more then anyone else ever could. I will always love you
I went to the optometrist today and I don't need glasses this really upsets me because i want glasses I think they are cute and they make you look smart thats all really. I ate a stuffed mushroom for dinner and now i'm going to sit back and watch series 2 of oz. House show tomorrow.Should be amazing Dreading seeing some people but can't wait to see some others. Will distribute the biggest hugs in the world.
I wish morgan was coming he leaves for wa on sunday though so jealous. I will get to see him at hardcore YAYAYAYA
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