My lack of motivation really kills me at times.
So last night was pretty fun thank you to my beautiful girls for cheering me up.
Also Benny "Whorehouse" Temper for being a good sport and putting up with Maddie and My phone rampage.
ahah sucks to be nathan and snake who got lovely calls from us also
ahah
Um i dyed my hair today.
VIOLENT REDDDDDDDDDD.............
Also went to the club watched tv did nothing really
I hate leaving the house because i hate being judged... peoples eyes on me no matter where i go i feel like people are talking behind my back...Social Paranoia... I hate the thought of people looking me up and down at what I'm wearing how my makeup is applied how my hair is done my piercings size my everything. The first thing you notice about a person is the way they look Its prob why i change my hair a lot and my clothes at least 3 times before leaving the house. And wont leave the house without make up on. My insecurity is so huge atm. Worse then it ever has been. I am so afraid of being hated. So afraid of being hurt. I ghuess i will have to grow up and get over it some day but for now staying under the covers at home sounds amazing.
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