Slipping

Back into the state of mind i have been in for the past year or so.


- Little Thoughts says:
I wish i didn't care what other people think of me my life would be so different
- Little Thoughts says:
i let people make me feel like shit
- Little Thoughts says:
and I let people make me feel like the most amazing thing and like i will never feel this happy again
- Little Thoughts says:
and then i let myself slip back into this state
- Little Thoughts says:
and i don't know how to get out of it without running away from my problems
- Little Thoughts says:
and my only real problem is myself


I just want to escape. I want to get away from myself. From my life. From my Family. From my friends that make me feel worthless who i guess are not really my friends. From every person in my life except about 5. From the part of me that lets myself feel worthless. From these thoughts. I want to be happy. I want to Smile. I want to feel the kinda happiness that i felt that night.

I don't want to be this depressed person that lacks motivation and depends on other people to make them happy.

I want to be my own person and not everyone else's perception of me. My only problem is I don't know who i am anymore because i have been too busy being who everyone else wants me to be and being so lost in my own demons.


I AM MY OWN BIGGEST ENEMY.