CONFESSIONS

So there is a thread at the moment on confesions and im deciding to post all of mine on here or all that i can think of/whatever.


I quit my job because i get so depressed i physically can not get up in the morning.


My mum is an alcoholic and it scares me because we are so alike. But still i drink every day and can't seem to stop as hard as i try.

I drink to escape the reality that my life is absolute scrad majority of people i know hate me and i have fucked it all up myself.


i gave user Ddave a handjob in the backseat of User: Morgans car whilst him and user:FKN were driving us home from Sydney to canberra. But i felt bad halfway through and stopped doing it and pretend to be asleep. Then Felt even worse for being a tease. Sozza Morgan and Amy.


I hate being finger banged but i sit through it because i don't want to offend people.


I have a fear of making any plans and i think its due to my intense fear of rejection. I'm so afraid that people will not like what i want to do or want to hang out with me i just wont suggest anything.

I hang out with my mum more then anyone else cause i have fucked up majority of my friendships.

I am insanely jealous of my friends that are in successfull relationships. All I want is to be in a relationship with a nice boy that i can hold hands with and watch movies with and walk around with no makeup on without feeling self conscious.


I am very self conscious I Care what everyone thinks of me. Even people i don't know on this forum and it really makes me upset when people i don't know dislike me. I Think I am the ugliest person i know. I change my outfit at least 5 times before i leave the house and usually just wear a t-shirt a jeans. I need to be drinking to socialise properly.
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I hardly ever leave the house because i'm either too drunk or too upset.

I constantly think about killing myself and i know the only person that would really care is my mother.


I am still hung up on the same boy and i still cry myself to sleep most nights about it. Even though i know i shouldn't and i have kissed other boys since.


I kiss alot of dudes because it makes me feel better about my self whilst it is happening. I don't even remember half of there names....


I write letters to people and never give them.


I quite honestly think the only positive thing about me is that i am vegun. and I work really hard to stick to it even though i fail sometimes from my sheer stupidity/drunkeness/not thinking.

I have so many confessions but i don't want to take up to much room because i know noone will read them anyway.


I let a girl believe i haven't kissed her at the time boyfriend by saying we had never had sex. We haven't had sex but we did fool around.
She still to thinks our weekly sleepovers were completly innocent...

Actually that has happened a few times Neutral


I lied to my mum about how many people i have slept with cause i don't want her to think i'm a slut.

My Grandparents still think i have a job even though i haven't been working for about 2 months.

I have never had an orgasm although i have faked it many times to get out of having shit sex.

I'm so hung up on my own insecurities that i don't notice the world around me.

I fall in love with my best friends very easily

I like kissing girls

Last night maddie farted in bed.

Today my mum asked me if i like doggie style

I love facial hair on men.

I am a horrible person..

IO hurt other people all the time.


I am insecure.


I hate myself