Food For Thought

1. I guess you are the person that I still think about most. Seeing you this weekend was one of the hardest things i have ever dealt with. I still love you so much and it makes everything hard. The time we spent together are my best memories. Even though I did some horrible shit to you and you did some horrible shit to me. I always wonder if it ever could have worked out between us and imo If It was a different time it could have, You always deny our chemistry and I don't know how you could have when it was obvious to everyone. You are still like home to me and I want one day to work shit out so we can be friends. I would give anything to be able to fall asleep in your arms just one more time just so i can feel that security no one else has been able to give me. I'm sorry for all the horrible shit i have said to you and for making your life harder then it should be. I love you.

2. I only met you recently and the chemistry was unbelievable. I have never fallen for a boy as hard as i have for you ever before and it scares me because i am so afraid to fuck things up. I wish that you did not live so far away because i would love to spend more time with you. The other night was so perfect and i cant stop thinking about it. I wish that the sun never came up so we could have sat there holding hands for ever. You are such a genuine and lovely guy and I feel like the luckiest girl in the world that you have the same general thoughts about me. You are making me forget him which i thought would never happen and it "feels goood man" As soon as i get my tax back I'm coming to see you and probly wont ever let you go. Sigh. I really like you.

3. I think we are growing apart and it really really sucks. You are my best friend and ever since you have got in a relationship its like i don't matter as much. I think I think about things like this too much and i am blowing it way out of proportion but thats just how i feel. I'm happy for you guys but it just hurts to feel like i have been pushed aside I hardly talk to you anymore and when i do i don't really know what to talk about. aside from that you have done so much for me and i dont think there is a way i can ever repay you + every memory i have of you makes me smile + i hope you guys get married cause no one will ever treat you as good as he does.


4.You change with every scene and it bothers me I want you to just be you and not be difined by the type of music you think is cool this week. I think you are going to sell out within a year which also makes me angry. We have been through alot of shit some good some bad my all time favorite memories have you in them and so do some of my worst. You are a amazing person but no one really sees that cause you put up a barrier and hide behind yourself.. I really do love you with all my heart and I wish you would stop doing drugs settle down and go back to the person i first fell in love with.

5.You have done so much for me and i know that i annoy you and I'm sorry i love you with all of my heart. I have a present planed for you and i hope you like it. I miss you when you are not around but i doubt the feeling is respiricated. Sometimes you make me feel really shit because i have poured my whole heart to you about some things and you still don't stop being a cunt. I wish we could hang out once and you not pick on me.

6.I know you have a big crush on me and I also know you are underage and I really just want you to tell me. I don't care if you are 17 it srsly does not bother me at all. You are a lovely guy and i'm keen to hang out but i don't want to lead you on also sigh i just don't know what to do.

7. You hurt me and you don't think you did anything wrong maybe you should think again I was wrong to ever trust you.

8.I have only been close with you for a few months but my word you are an amazing guy. I love spending time with you and you always take such good care of me. One day we will move out together and it will rule so hard.

9. You are such an awesome guy. You are smart and funny and good looking and imo just perfect I wish you could see yourself in the same way i see you. I trust you more than anyone and sometimes you abuse my trust. But tbh it doesn't bother me all that much. It really hurts me to see you in the way you are now and i wish that there was more i could do for you I have been in your exact position but i still don't really know what to say sigh. I love you so so so much and i would marry you today. I love spending time with you and cuddling you.

10. You are with out a doubt the best friend i have ever had i would not give you up for anything I love you so much we have been through so much and you have never turned your back on me. Please never do. I'm sorry i have been a shit friend to you quite a bit Just know i love you and will always be there for you.

11.I really don't like you. I feel like you have taken my closest friend away from me and don't want to share her. which makes me very angry. sigh. I wish you would just move back to wear you came from.

12. I miss you. You are the best woman ever I'm so glad you finally have found some happiness in your life and I hope things keep going your way because you deserve the world. I worry about you so much when you are sad and i wish i could live closer to you and take care of you.

13.I do have a bit of a crush on you but i only see you once a year. I know you are attracted to me as well. Things would be easier if you were single.

14. I love you. You are going to grow up and be such a strong strong person and so pretty and smart and fun. Keep being who you are and never lose yourself don't be so sad and I know i always love you. Blood is Thicker than water.

15. You are mean to me on the Internet and it makes me really sad i love spending time with you in real life. I have always had a thing for you and that wont change ever idk I just miss being super close with you and talking to you about everything maybe one day things will go back to how they were. I really hope so.

16. I love you more than anyone in this world and I want to take care of you. You are an incredible person even though you don't think so. You should not hate yourself so many people love you and care so much about you. I miss how much time we spent together and sleepovers with you and stuff like that it was awesome to see you on the weekend and i will come see you soon. I worry about you so much. I still want to marry you one day/will name my first child after you >.<

17.You are fun to hang out with and I really enjoy spending time with you. Seeing you upset really made me upset. I hate that because of my immaturity amongst other things we did not talk for ages. sigh idk you are awesome though.

18.I have only hung out with you twice and you are already one of my all time favorite people. I am very much an open book around you. I look forward to your messages and hearing about what is going on in your life. Your message today made me cry you are truly amazing.

19.I really miss you alot and i don't know what i did to make us grow apart. I really loved spending time with you and you where one of the best friends i will ever have. I'm sorry for whatever i have done to you that has made shit so fucked between us. I know things will never be the same.

20. You are so fucking immature please grow up and leave me alone/gtfo out of my life you fat jaded bitch.